without you ..

time , too masa ..masa too ap ? masa too berharga ..haaaahhh , ok da cukoppp merepek !

act , aryny i nak share satu citer .. pasal one guy neyhh , a very special one ,,

"him" yg i mksodkan is my ubby .. i jest nak share benda ny suke2 jerr .. bukan nak riak ..

this "mamat" memang lurus bendul orangnya but , dy garang !! tp garang bertempat laa .. 

sape yg xpena marah ann ?? eeee ,, ruginya idop xpena ade perasaan marah ! hahaha .. 

okkk , back to my story ..




bermulanya pada suatu pagi .........


pertemuan  neyh kira2 5 taon yg lepas .. time tuhh ary sukan sekolah ..
masa ny i form 1 n "mamat" ny form 2 ..
i ade sorg bff neyhh , nama dy norazwa .. then dy mx bf dy amek pic i dgn dy , but bf dy xnak .. xtau lahh npe dy bad mood arytoo .. tiba2 member kpde bf azwa ny td , volunteer nak tolong , dalam kamera too ,, ade gambar laa ann ?? tapi yg pelik nya .. "mamat" ny  , nmpak cinta .. huhuhu .. paham aann ?? so member bf azwa ny lahh "mamat" yg i sayang tuhh .. kitorang xpena jumpa , so that was the first time laa .. after da amek pic too i pon teros blahh .. then "mamat" ny td ckp at mmber dy nak kenal i , dry ayat keramat too laa .. azwa n bf dy merancang sesuatu .. merancang tok rapatkan kami .. (ap yg diorang buat seterusnya xpaya cite laa ok , memang panjang ,takot u alls xinterested  ) ap yg pasti .. i n "mamat" ny kena prank .. so , bermula laa kisah kami sebagai sahabat ,, tp too pon sahabat bodo-bodo alam jerr .. masa too kicik2 ag .. kenal punya kenal , kawan punya kawan .. terbukak laa aty dy nak propose i jd awexx dy .. haaahh , that time ap ag .. sapu jerr laa but seriusly .. i xpena serius pon dgn ubungan too at that time .. ase mcm puppy love jerr .. couple smggu , then break laa .. but , kuasa Allah , i yg rancang but Allah yg tentukan .. makin bersama i makin ngam dgn dy n hati i terbukak tok terima dy dengn ikhlas .. Alhamdullilah , kami bersama ..paling penting parents kami tau pasal ubungan kami n azimat yg kami pegang ..couple is couple but study is the first things !! kami xnak hampakan kpcayaan parents kami .. (wahhh , kami ge-tooo) .. banyak dugaan dan cabaran kami lalui , it's not easy for us tok petahankan ubungan ny yg almost 4 years , but i'm lucky to have this "mamat" .. dy cool no mtter what pon .. i ?? hampehhh .. hahaha ,
but kitorang memang contra sangat .. saling melengkapi laa each other ..

n tht's make me fall in love with him evryday .. 4 taon bersama dalam sekolah too , sangat bermakna bg i , pagi2 confemmm dy tunggu i depan pintu paga skolah ,at tapak perhimpunan mesti dy antar i masok barisan kelas i dulu then baru dy pergi , rehat jerr selalu buat hal masing2 ..coz i love doing picnic at sch with my chayunkk2 .. i men kgkawan i .. balik , mesti tunggu ,then dy akan escourt i sampai depan uma i , even jarak uma kitorang jao laa gak .. but , he willingly to do that ..bila dy ade at skolah too , i jdi 
terkawal .. rasa safety i terjaga .. but ,, now dy dah menamatkan zaman sekolahnya ..

so everything da berubah , no more dy tunggu time pg sk ,balik sk , time rehat jerr xde nak usha sape2 da at kantin tuhh .. sometimes bila at kantin tuhh mesti i akan tenung at meja dy n geng2 dy selalu makan , mesti tersengih sorang2 , teringat teletah dy .. i miss that .. uhhhhhh ,, time balik xde org nak escourt dah , mesti balik dgn member2 motor .. memang terasa kehilangan dy .. kdg2 i tepikir , too laa time dy ade selalu nak gaduh , time dah xde npe nak teringt ag ?? kkaaannn ?? sedihhh wooo ..semuanya rasa susah bila dy xde dekat dengan i , esp nak pam tayar motor , if motor mengada nak buat hal ..susah sangat .. but ,

this is life , i have too if i want the best for myself .. 
" ORANG YANG SABAR , AKAN DAPAT LEBIH "

kata2 yg i pegang ketat2 bila i ase down sangat bila dy xde ..sometimes i just miss his smile n laugh , 

{me : senyum ,nampak gigi u ?? him : ngeeee ~ } .. itulah kami ..memang xsweet pon .. memang kami xromantik , xjiwang karat .. but we accept each other .. dgn ikhlas ..after SPM dy decided to find a job n make his own money for further his study soon , i mmg berat aty nak bepisah but i know he made a right choice for himself , almost sebulan 
dy keje .. masa tok bersama mmg jarang sangat2 ,, but i know this is a starting for a new life for us .. even i tau makin banyak dugaan yg akan datang , but Insyaallah , if we honest n truly love each other , semuanya akn dipemudahkan ..i made this , esp for him .. bcause at this moment  .. i really2 miss him ..n i really2 feel lonely ..only Allah yg tau semuanya ..

        I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOHAMMAD IZZUDDIN BIN MOHD MISLER !!!